2day so coincidence to meet my senior which is my previous addmaths teacher....just elder thn me 4 o 5 years........
He told me that or can consider to advise me not to study form 6 cause study form 6 not a smart choice for us......u know y??
This is be2 after the STPM exam u r probably unable to get the courses that u want o interested...this is y he go to collage after the approval letter from University has out....he cant get his anticipate couse...he dissapointed...
For example: (real)there r 60% of form 6 student cant get their interested course can almost 50% ppl go to the private collage......in my opinion why the goverment must do lai this...y??
Is because the places not enough?? On another hand,is be2 our result problem? or just the University wan the best student....others just throw to another U in the way of "watever"??
This is quit funny but it has happened...that i heard from my senior, my senior was a science stream student...bt he sent into a U by studying IT programmer.....waliao...izzit a mistaken o really from a word..."watever"?? What i meant is mayb the U has take a student but no place for his interested sub thn throw him to wat ever courses........OMG......really silly.......Ruin their future........perhaps it ruin my future too.......Why i want to study f6?? No money loh....
Nowadays,ppl in the world r realistic.......hmm.......
Back to the point...U know,when i was listen his word i hv a strong n vast feeling that i must work harder n harder.....to the my best result...
In fact,it is like make a ladder to reach the heaven......totally hard for me.....
Formally post has wrote about my feel.......
Once i decided i will do it no matter how critical situation it is.....just dun 1 to waste my time,energy n money.......i hope that i can surpass n overcome any problems that i faced.....
YO~not easy men......scare to face exam.......bt "bo bian"...f6 life....is my fate...my destiny.....
N i'm so luckly to met him today......it lead me to consider how to apply anthing after the STPM...think about my future n get the information to me to prepare my future "road".........
Haiz.........nid to put more effort to study jor.........T.T~~~~~~!!
Tired wu...........^^2day i swim till all the miserable,troble throw to the back of my mind.....^^
A nice exercise to relex myself^^
Wednesday, June 17, 2009
Tuesday, June 16, 2009
Today......i struggling....n worrying....
Today, is today............
Tomorrow, is tomorrow.....
Just want to let out my some unstable mood.....actually i decided to study form 6 is not to burden my parents... due to this i hv make a decison to study form 6...but than...
i realize form 6 getting hader n harder...friends around me complain that really hard n study like a hell....teacher rush the syallbus n my mind came out so many immense quistion mark....OMG...some havnt b digested new things come to me again....some luckly go for collage....some change stream...even some break of to study form 6.......
Form me.....not enough 3 months alrdy be tired of chasing syallbus....tution.....study...routine the same thing....damn boring.....damn not good.....always study study damn unhealthy.....my friends all go chase their dream....different school....wah....
In conclusion....i adapt the environment but my mind hvnt adapt this environment yet.......
Sometimes nid to do the things that i reluctant to do.......for instance,do homework....waliao....if i din din o try my homework i really duno n dun understand the syallbus.....
N somemore got 5 tuition........wakau.....i gona die die die....almost exhausted....if i not to tuition i know i really cant follow up wat teacher teach..........i almost delirium....
In addition,i anticipate my life will change better thn this....nid to balance my mood n my healthy.....not ec o.......i duno weather i got gv myself too much tension.....but i feel that i try to relex myself....i rememberd that this monday....sleep at class....after the vocation i totally tired......until now.....headache....stomachache.....perhaps its the symptom of presure....i not really like my class.....cause peer presure....all of them study study n study.....n i sure got ppl "badder" thn me lah......that y i try yo make myself calm down let out my unstabilize mood.......
I'm a person that "happy-go-luckly" in apperently...inside my heart.....quit intricate.....
Neither hedonistic nor passive thinker......just as ordinary person....sometimes passive sometimes optimist...just depand on my mood......erm......if i'm alone i will feel lonely....on the other hand....sometimes i enjoy alone....haha izzit contradictive?? ya....
If some thing happened to my i would like to stay alone to visualize,how n why.......
hmm......recently i'm sedentary to do anything....less involved in event....although i possess anyhings....i'm consider happiness...but i feel void inside my heart(alrdy accumulated long time ago)u knw why??
I nid God.....
Tell the truth I got another action to let out my temper.....
yell somebody...do something that unsual...bla bla bla...many....u ask my friends thn u will know......Its hard to reveal my deep side...my problem...but i'm a person that anything write on the face....u can know......hmm.......getting mature...my disguising getting better.....^^
try yo conceal somethigs purposely getting bad feel,excruciatingly.....
Haiz.....wat a humdrum environment.......idle study......
In reality.....i nid to face n do it......more suffer i nid to overcome it......
More challanging more interesting......more fierce to face it......i trust myself i'm not easy to unnerve not easy break of this challanging......i will do it n face my situation sturdyly......pray to God......just can pray.....i know i'm weak....hope God can hear my pray....got time i will share a testimony to u all........
In conclusion i struggling wonder i want caontinue my study o changr stream.....n wat i worry is my future.....bt i hv decided in here.....i will do it until i conquer all the problems.....
till here ....later nid to study again.......be4,nid to do facial......^^
beauty is not the only authority of gals o women....boys nid it too......^^
Tomorrow, is tomorrow.....
Just want to let out my some unstable mood.....actually i decided to study form 6 is not to burden my parents... due to this i hv make a decison to study form 6...but than...
i realize form 6 getting hader n harder...friends around me complain that really hard n study like a hell....teacher rush the syallbus n my mind came out so many immense quistion mark....OMG...some havnt b digested new things come to me again....some luckly go for collage....some change stream...even some break of to study form 6.......
Form me.....not enough 3 months alrdy be tired of chasing syallbus....tution.....study...routine the same thing....damn boring.....damn not good.....always study study damn unhealthy.....my friends all go chase their dream....different school....wah....
In conclusion....i adapt the environment but my mind hvnt adapt this environment yet.......
Sometimes nid to do the things that i reluctant to do.......for instance,do homework....waliao....if i din din o try my homework i really duno n dun understand the syallbus.....
N somemore got 5 tuition........wakau.....i gona die die die....almost exhausted....if i not to tuition i know i really cant follow up wat teacher teach..........i almost delirium....
In addition,i anticipate my life will change better thn this....nid to balance my mood n my healthy.....not ec o.......i duno weather i got gv myself too much tension.....but i feel that i try to relex myself....i rememberd that this monday....sleep at class....after the vocation i totally tired......until now.....headache....stomachache.....perhaps its the symptom of presure....i not really like my class.....cause peer presure....all of them study study n study.....n i sure got ppl "badder" thn me lah......that y i try yo make myself calm down let out my unstabilize mood.......
I'm a person that "happy-go-luckly" in apperently...inside my heart.....quit intricate.....
Neither hedonistic nor passive thinker......just as ordinary person....sometimes passive sometimes optimist...just depand on my mood......erm......if i'm alone i will feel lonely....on the other hand....sometimes i enjoy alone....haha izzit contradictive?? ya....
If some thing happened to my i would like to stay alone to visualize,how n why.......
hmm......recently i'm sedentary to do anything....less involved in event....although i possess anyhings....i'm consider happiness...but i feel void inside my heart(alrdy accumulated long time ago)u knw why??
I nid God.....
Tell the truth I got another action to let out my temper.....
yell somebody...do something that unsual...bla bla bla...many....u ask my friends thn u will know......Its hard to reveal my deep side...my problem...but i'm a person that anything write on the face....u can know......hmm.......getting mature...my disguising getting better.....^^
try yo conceal somethigs purposely getting bad feel,excruciatingly.....
Haiz.....wat a humdrum environment.......idle study......
In reality.....i nid to face n do it......more suffer i nid to overcome it......
More challanging more interesting......more fierce to face it......i trust myself i'm not easy to unnerve not easy break of this challanging......i will do it n face my situation sturdyly......pray to God......just can pray.....i know i'm weak....hope God can hear my pray....got time i will share a testimony to u all........
In conclusion i struggling wonder i want caontinue my study o changr stream.....n wat i worry is my future.....bt i hv decided in here.....i will do it until i conquer all the problems.....
till here ....later nid to study again.......be4,nid to do facial......^^
beauty is not the only authority of gals o women....boys nid it too......^^
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