What happening to me?? What has happened to me??

This few days i wonder that i really suitable to take this challenge ont....??
STPM....this mayb a good experience to myself to grow in my part of life!!
I wondering that i can study ont....cause it really make me tired......
Undoubtedly,stressful...and headache....
Well,when i heard that got a student get a extremely good result in phy...i perish the thought....

This few days not only ordeal my mental to force myself to undersatnd the syallbus but also try to get a smart way to learn the syallbus.......All wat i done,thank GOD i get something n i found a way....bt it really exhausted my physically energy.....

One day,i hv found that my eyes hv blur visual on the board when i was copying the words on board...on that moment,my brain told me perhaps u hv short-sighteness....wow..this was my speculation.....i tended refuse to wear spectacles due to an incident...that time i was standard 6....deeply jab my heart...that's y i swear to my self no going to wear spectacles again...
Hmm....coincidently i found that i hv no short-sighteness but hv a diversion of light and long-signhteness...@@ all were my conjesture....dun take it serious FIRST....

So,come bak to my charater...i really duno why my unique charater will laitis....i suspect that i hv a fierce emotional temper....not only violent, but also bad charateristic....that cultivated in my heart....indeedly need a vocation...perhaps under a stress conditon can make me more mature but the tension from myself will kill me soon......Notwithstanding,i felt that i was persevere(formely) to reach my anticipate....but i cant even lull myself or gv me self ha a peace and stressless time............EXCEPT swimming and entertaiments.....
HAiz....most of the time stay in a competive environments...really take my life.....probably GOD has given me a good environment to train me instead to give me a preparation before i step into the REAL SOCIAL.....
Well...i hv no idea...HE has a plan on me....just follow.....

Wanna ask that where and which one is my weakness and talent....??(based on physically ,mentally, or charater or watever lah).....
Mind to write it down ur comment??
Dun worry i wont get angry on u.........

Haiz nid to study again lah..................T.T
really nid ppl care on me.........

till here.....