A week that i'm really......

Something happened on that week...
The impluse can really cause me to die....
The momentom is strong until i cant use shorter time to make it stop...
Now......i duno wat should i do...
Still got sth inside me...that make me...duno how to slove this...
take a deep breath........
Adjusting my mood....
Cried......
Scream...
pretand...
all of this just to make my self to release it...
lies...i hate it......
Previously i wont hv this kind of feeling....
But why......
God plz gv me wisdom to slove it....
I nid YOU....
My mood is real intricate
Unconscious.....
Pretend is not good and real suffer......
but hv to do it so.....bt i failed to do so....
I...................................................................
fine..........

hey long time no c.....

Hmm..............my blog seem to b lack of sth ya....
Ya recently diint blog alrdy....quite miss this place.....^^
Nvm start from now i think i will try to update my recent activity........
Mayb i still lack some skills to blog.....
For me.........i hv not much experience to blog ba...........just nid to share sth to u all...mayb my friends no enough my follower not much....hope that my blog can gv u all sth not just let u all c c loh.........haha..........just suddenly hv those passion to blog ba.....haha..........
erm.........exam is around the corner bt like no mood to study o.....hmm..........sad sad sad....
and this time my exam gona b die die die....T.T HELP~

A new year day.....^^

Happy New Year!!
This year althoungh hv to face all the new challenges bt this year is a blessed new year^^
Study~~
Result~~
This is the most pressurise me.....T.T
Bt......

God is the hope of God...
Sure i trust Him can bring me,lead me to overcome all this chanllenges...^^

Happy new year...^^

A meaningfull christmas.....^^

This is my saman neh....~~

Hmm............
Christmas.......

The Christmas day,that day i was busying my christmas stuff........
The whole day,(If not mistaken) from 10am until 3pm doing my stuff,non stop...

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Arrange chairs,
Make a stage,
The way to arrange chairs,
many problems hv to solve on the spot.......

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Wow,tiring.....................
And also torturing my brain.......
Cuz i dun like to think de....^^
Especially how to solve problems in an event.....
Luckly,that day blessed by God.......
Weather,Food,amount of ppl,all out my expectation......
And from this event i experienced God caring of me, erm, all of us...
and wat HE done it has His own order......
Indeed,i hv learnt alot in this event and pulling my heart bak to youth.....
Thx God....
Bt i know myself well,
Till nw i quit mischievous ,

NAUGHTY is not for me......^^

Also i enjoyed..........
I enjoyed all the time,i hv a good memory..........

admitted,I'm tried my best.........
Is cream de la cream..........^^
Although is tiring for me...........
But.........
Its a meaningfull christmas...........^^

Wah.............BuSy holiday....^^

Yeah....................
1st,hv to tell myself "I must enjoy and appreciate this moment......or else u will regret o!!"
Ya,these few days i hv been busy my christmas stuff.....
Of cuz,next few days i will b more busy......cuz christmas is around the corner....!!
I'm here to wish u all a early MERRY CHRISTMAS.....^^

Ya,my feeling problems.....finally......settel......^^

Hmm,originally i planned this holiday wanna full use of time to study.......
However,
My mood doesn't follow my instruction...
keep on no mood study.....
delay and delay keep on finding excuses........T.T
I find out sth.........
Many ppl also similar with me o....^^


Didnt touch book at all.......^^

Erm,Ya,there few day my pocket money flow out like a water......
Bt,its worth..................................................^^
And i hope money can automatically come to find me....^^
Sure hv to pray loh.............
Bt.......................
Hmm....................

And,i find out...............
Actually i quit.........influence ppl......
Erm,wat i said wat i done,i not really remember......bt got a ppl told me that my words my action alrdy changing their mindset there own weaknesss......^^
Haha........perhaps my mouth can influence ppl walking to a bright future,think positively,encourage them.......bla bla bla....
In the mean time, I also changing myself.......^^
Erm,learn how to b a (respective,well palnning,attractive,more responsible,and more and more.....) guy.........^^

Sometimes,i can teach ppl well.....console,incentive and encourage them....bla bla bla..
Sometimes,i cant do it.........Cause.....I also a human ma...nid ppl to encourage me,to console me...WHEN i'm weak.......

By and large..................

I'm a human also.........
Will done sth wrong......
Condone is necessary for me and u all........

2day i get a "saman".....T.T

Hehe....1st times experiecse o^^
Today i went to tuition about 8.30am.....
Be4 i was go out I realised that my car has been drive by my dad....
Hehe,go "refill" fuel for me a~~^^
Thn sure will late de loh,cuz my ttn start at 8.30am.....

K,my dad was bak....
Thn u know me wat....speed.....to ttn.....
And thn,i parked my car near the pasar there loh....thn that time i was thought no nid put so many money de lah...nobody will check de GUA......
Hmm,thn i just put in 50sen oli.....

Whn i reached my ttn centre....aiya...ppl ask me did u put token into the wat wat parking meter a....duno wat should call the stupid thing......

K,after finished my ttn....went to my car and thn...............^^
Quit tranquil,and i realised my car got a long long de paper wor....
Whn i saw..............And got witnesses also o~~
Oh,SAMAN o~~^^
Thn phone my dad and told him I kena saman jor......T.T
That time,i really felt that i'm unfortune o~~
Haiz........
Thn nvm loh,God gave me a good experience to receive a saman....^^
Actually not a big deal lah........
Just 1st times received a SAMAN.......

Hmm,once the problem can b solved with money.....There is nothing to worry about...
Cuz v can earn money wat.....Earn money,Use money..normal wat....A natural cycle o^^

So next time once u get Saman should call ur dad 1st mayb can pay less o....^^

Next time show u the pic(saman)....^^



Erm,about my feeling again o!!
Actually i dun want to think much jor de....
Bt duno y the feeling...quit strong xia de....make me......insomia gua.....
Duno,i hope God can lead me...
Let me know how and what should I do loh........
Hmmm.........so one day.......dia will know my feeling de.....
Why i wanna let dia know leh......??
Cuz i dun want to regret,Dun want to miss dia....
Hope Hope..........erm dun want tel u all 1st.....^^

Feeling....II....Holding a chance.......

Hmm,actually these few days quit struggling about my feeling....

I duno how to do....

But its really make me uncomfortable.....

Wanna tell.......

It's not a suitable time......

I hv confirmed my feeling........

I duno what kind of feeling...........has......

This kind of feeling......its natural....

Just like a friendship......the "connections" between u n my friends is form naturally....

I duno how long I can keep this feeling inside my heart....

Patience...............



I think I can keep it......


I hv no idea to solve this kind of feeling..........


Its vry intricated...........


It's depand on me.........



But...............


I scare..........


Afraid that......


Haiz...................



I think mayb there isn't a time for me to tell my feeling to.........


I know, God will make a way for me.............


I duno why.......bt thanks God........


And..............



I assured.......


If I get the chance.......i will hold it........i wont miss it........


I will..............