Feeling....II....Holding a chance.......

Hmm,actually these few days quit struggling about my feeling....

I duno how to do....

But its really make me uncomfortable.....

Wanna tell.......

It's not a suitable time......

I hv confirmed my feeling........

I duno what kind of feeling...........has......

This kind of feeling......its natural....

Just like a friendship......the "connections" between u n my friends is form naturally....

I duno how long I can keep this feeling inside my heart....

Patience...............



I think I can keep it......


I hv no idea to solve this kind of feeling..........


Its vry intricated...........


It's depand on me.........



But...............


I scare..........


Afraid that......


Haiz...................



I think mayb there isn't a time for me to tell my feeling to.........


I know, God will make a way for me.............


I duno why.......bt thanks God........


And..............



I assured.......


If I get the chance.......i will hold it........i wont miss it........


I will..............

Feelings..........

There are many types of feelings in out humanity,no matter how v behave how v act....the feeling that inside ur heart will "float" out in ur behaviour....
As v can notice that people have different personality. In the world,there r billions of ppl live in this holy land and this land has lots of different personalities...
A person such as me,i'm a human,sure...(sorry,just an introduction) i hv different personality,in these personalities,some r good some r bad....rite??(asking useless Q)^^
So no human is a perfect human except,JESUS.HE is the one who had been a human...He is perfect. He is a perfect human. Nobody like Him,because He is God's son. That is why our human hv to learn from Him....^^

Feelings come from our truth personality,a truth side of the ppl....V cant cover or even hide our feeling inside our heart,although v can pretend it through our gesture or our outside look.
But non of us can conceal our sadness,happiness,and ect.

I will ask why our human hv such feelings??
And i found out the ans,
Try to think in different perspective,
1st, if v dun hv feeling how should v go to communicate with each others??
For instance,i'm crying...thn ppl know sth is happened to me..they can guess the inccident erm....not good to me,feel sad.....
2nd, when v happy feel proud enjoying sth,sure,v will smile,laugh,or mayb hv joys of tear.....ect. Ppl can make a speculation and know sth making us vry happy,a good inccident...bla bla bla..
so feel happy....

All these kind of things v cant hide,and the feel that u hv cant b hidden....is normal....
As a norm person,v hv to experience all kind of feelings....like joys,happy,angry,anxious,sad,moody...............many a~~
2day,i just wanna to tell u all and also remind me......
feelings no matter to who to what kind of things to wat knod of event o inccident,just express it out......b an original ppl tht u r......bad charateristics v change,good humanity v maintain it....

Feelings that created by GOD,tht all r unique......so appreciate it and b a good humanity,hv a great moral values also as a role model to our friends o ur siblings....
Yes finally tired,just nw phone ppl and ppl phone me make me not sleepy,now sleepy alrdy later continue part II....

By and large,feelings to a person that r extremely crucial its promote a comunication between ppl, understand each others,and many many "functions".....^^

that ppl ya.......should appreciate my saliva and my energy to chat with u....^^
Just u and me de secret....shhhhhhhh.................^^sleep loh...morning....

FIRST times~~~~~..........

Hey guys,its been a long time neh......
First,i hv to thx GOD gave me a good experienced......and also for those who pay there condolence to me...thx a..now i'm getting better and fully recover soon...
Previously,i hv been busy my study form day until night quit tired bt at least that is the way to make me acheive my goal......haha....my target,FULL As o~~ not easy,hope to get it...i know,bt i can make it....

Well planning,carry out wat i hv planned,follow the schedule,yes....i make it...i really make it.....it's truth,not lie to anybody......... i can do it according to my plan....just duno how to emphasize the topic and catch wat the questions wanted....

Exam was go well....1 paper passed,2nd papper passed,and etc....quit fun and exited....BUT after the maths paper on that day nitez,my stomach start to pain.....wasai,thn i fast fast go on my bed to sleep.....next day.about 6am i thought it was gastric...thn wait until 9am mum bring me to clinic and the doctor also said gastric......bak hum.......bt still pain.....vomit,painful,suffering,.....haiz....terrible that time...

Slept all the time...but duno y the pain stilll doesn't reduce bt getting more pain and pain....haiz.....until nitez go seek for second doctor......he said it was "feng tong"...not mang chang yan....bt mayb it also mang chang yan....(cause that time the doc press my abdomen-down right of my abdomen) not so pain and my respond just ok loh pain pain di....if mang chang yan i will b vry painful...so,again bak hum....untill 11sth wasai........beh tahan....my parent straigh away sent me to hospital....the doc take my blood for blood test...if white blood cells higher thn red blood cells thn it exactly is a mang chang yan....and the result was....expected.....thn sleep at hospital a nite cause be4 the operation i had ate sth so hv to wait 6 hrs......that nitez i was alone....

Next day,parent came to hospital and woke me up......thn around 8am i was pushed into the surgery room...and became unconscious......(i duno how the doctor do the operation on my body lah......) haha........until i awake...the painful reduced but just my scar there still pain....entirely the painful was reduced......haha.......so now at home rest....enjoyable bt not fun at all....it cost my parent quit amount of money too.....

Anyway 1st times experienced excruciate in 24 hrs......u know....whole day live in pain leh......excruciatingly....T.T...
Now feel more better sat hv to sit the MUET exam.....T.T
haha.........so,next time if u all got such pain especially right down side of the abdomen must go hospital o....

What do u think about ur life??

In my life...start from form 1 my life getting better and better.....until form 5 mayb my form 5 life is the most climax....for me....now i'm think i drop into the valley....hehe....i mean my busy life....but i more enjoy focus in study...cause form 6 i made a firmly decision for myself i must study mustn't waste time and try my best to get the best result.....i know i'm not that intellegence that is y i work hard...work harder that ppl...

In my opinion i always invoke "i'm not that clever,i must work harder that others ppl".....but for me...sth that i'm nt in passion on it i cant focus it....cant work it well....e.g sejarah...nt interested at all....the enthusiasm is crucial to compelling u to do it....no matter how ordeal,u r just try ur best to reach ur target...and the determionation from urself also vital to reach ur target....
A persevere is needed to make ur target to be successed also need alot of knowledge to step into ur success.... Ppl said knowledge is power...but for me...there aren't. The foremost is ur behaviour...ur behaviour(e.g passion,determination,courage and ect.) to complete ur ambition...secondly is ur knowledge...than ur knowledge will assist,this is your power.....

That is why ppl nid to study...to gain knowledge.....something that astonish me is i crave to get get more money by selling my skill and my knowledge....and aggle over every ounce with them finially i lose....be2 of my dady....(sorry is not convenience to tell u more i know its quit ambiguous)...let it b...now i nid money to futher traning my drum skill to b a professional drummer....and hv a fun in ochestra amuse myself and satisfy my desire....wakaka.....amateur drummer o astronomy also can.......cause i will more enjoy to do wat i want to do.....NOT only me.....everybody,60billons ppl in the world also laitis...

NOW my life just hv usual getting better thn previous.....accept the environment and accept the reality and try my best to obey the rules....and also try to participate any koko.....i mean about the organize of an event.....and also be consultant of all kind of event...wakaka.....cause no nid do bt just talk and give my opinion....hehe...suit me this type of lazy ppl.......ok......lastly,i hope got some philanthropist can sponsor me to learn drum??haha....joking ..how about my dad?? plz....i dun want burden my dad.....and i want b indepandenced and ease my family financial burden....as much as i can.....this is my target hv to reach....of course that is many target that i hv made....i hv to make it truth.....

Izzit me?? and StupId SchOoL..........!!

HAiz...........2day stay at hum....for whole day.....duno y so enjoyable....haha....
Last time i wont "guai guai" stay at hum de........bt 2day so shock.......stay at hum study,watch movie,sleep,listen songs,and on9........hehe........

I really dun like go the stupid school......just like hving form 5 live....although the syallbus is different...but the stupid teacher want us do this and that....waste our money to buy that super uglg tie.....gv to the dog..the dog will dun want to wear the tie also.....and one name tag cost RM10....aiya..wat also talk about the money...USELESS...n...walao....teachers at there no brain want.....lack of leadership lack of planning lack of communication.....walao.....worst thn my secondary school.....

still hv 14months to stay at that stupid school....DEC is not count in....luckily....and also some of the teacher quit lazy.......pass her obligation to the new teacher and the combanation of classes..like tutorial...walao lagi teruk...(except phy)....i cant even concerntrate at all......go there waste time waste money......waste my energy and also waste my petrol..if din go school the attandance will b worst....haiz......just can b patience...

Duno how to say duno how to describe the school.....start from i stepped into the school alrdy struggle want to study form 6 ont......i make my final decision alrdy dun want burden my family so decided to study frm 6.....but after form 6....i duno i can go in U ont.....cause i konw once i cant b patience any more.....i sure will argue with teacher......violence MAYB cant b avoided...so I duno want how to do...and wat should do....just focus on study and participate on koko...as an ordinary member....ya ,it make me more relex to b a member....n no nid to plan to lead to argue.....

From my perspective....i DUN EVEN like this school....but friends....friends mayb can cause me to do sth that as a student wat should.......hehe.......this is wat i perceived from my self.......and i also hope that fast fast finish STPM......go somewhere that i want to go......and freedom....i nid this.........cause i dun like rules.....like a bird live in a cage......no freedom......die faster......^^

2day just this bit bit sharing.......next time got time i will write more and more detail....

2day i saw a hope.......

Today when i was in school.....just on the way walked back to my class from the office...i saw an aeroplane...that the plane is flight on about 30degree upthrust and forward...thn my mind suddenly reckon why man can build an aeroplane?? its awesome....why man can drive an aeroplane fly in the sky?? that really need lots of technique and utilize high level of knowledge to build a safety and stable and good aeroplanes....
On the moment I feel that I also can do it....because i know aeroplane created by human....and this all just need knowledge.....i tell myself,i crave to have a private aeroplane or just want to travel around the world...let off my vexation,miserable,pressure and problems.....hehe.....so free....

but than,i also make a deal with myself to study well earn more money and learn to b a proffesional engineer to create something new to convenience our live....and merely working.....
On the other hand,my enthusiasm in science knowledge are.....how to say...just want to learn it more n more.....to upgrade myself.....i hope my life will full of adventurous and exited event....haha...

Nowadays,the advancement of technology getting faster and faster....the nano-tech onslaught to our life...it skim the old and big size of something such as computer...it getting small and small...holistically bring out a fashion and convenient and popular to our contemporary....
I just wonder that why our human being hv a such high wisdom to create this things....its bring me to another side to consider that it is God that given us a such super highly wisdom to make these lastest and high-tech facilities and amelity......ya this knowledge (all) are belong to God.....
He is the one who gave us this wisdom and now v should appreciate it and not for warfare.......

bak to my mood today......just enjoying the class and go bak sleep jor almost 4 hours.....tiring and nothing much special......but i felt comfortable when i look the sky its bring to a feel like freedom and hv a cosy mentality....haha.....i like sky i also like the sea and desire to hv a look to a noce scenery............its really gv me a good mood......^^

Wow.........long time din pour out my real feeling alrdy...

Hmm......around this few weeks i hv overcome many problems and experiences gained into my growing stage....I learnt how to speak in a manners way and behave well in that place.....
Of course,at the school they hv no oppoturnity to c.......me behave like this...

just wanna tell u a testimony.....last time when i was at tuition center i played with my friends but duno how i make him angry alrdy....and scold me go bak home lah......thn i din say anything...just went bak to home.....once i stepped into my house i realised that i hv a date with my kai jie...OMG...in that moment i still cant remember i hv a date with her.....well eventually still can chase the time to watch movie....I can even now feel that God is besides me....He know me well He understand me thoroughly....I really thanks my Lord....

Another inciddent was happened recently.....my friend and my another friend just name it as X and Y......X and Y both of them actually misundersatnd each other....they started to quarrel due to small little things....finally both of them didn't speak amongst them...the caramaderie amongst them spoilted...this inccident progresses intricately and at the end be4 we hv a trip to P.D my friends Z as a intermediator bring them into a room and say or tell or argue just wanna them to settel their misunderstand......thanks GOD.....it settled and V go P.D to enjoy our indepandent days countdown.........and tay a night.....

About my school work.....wat i worry is i somewhat scare I cant handle it well....cause i know that what i'm doing in my class....just mischievous and cant concertrate in class especially on chy period....duno why.....and always want to chat with ppl....feel emptiness in my heart....duno o....I can alwys tell or console my friends to b strong and optimistic bla bla bla....sometimes i cant stand in this "position" cause i.........

Hmm....just hope that i can make myself to study WITH the enjoying ways and distinct and effective way to let me hv a good memory about the syllabus......

K lah.......wanna oi oi jor,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,^^